a pause in production

by Joni Abilene

Something is wrong with me. I was working steady, trying so hard to write the best damn book I could after years of writing a few other best damn books that anyone could attempt to write, and now—I don’t know what it is—I’ve realized I completely suck at this and should just give it a rest. Maybe it’s pressure. My goal was to have something publishable by the fall so that I could justify pursuing this while the kids were both at school full time, but that seems really selfish to me now. No one’s telling me I’m any good, I’m not getting published—all signs point to me getting a full time job.

Very sad right now, but again, I can’t justify this anymore.